as written on: Saturday, December 27, 2008
titled as: different.
i've been a VERY good girl this year..... (NOT). this is why i think santa and God gave me a christmas to remember.
i'm not really into sharing things so let's make this short. in terms of my social status, i got a minus 1. family, uhh... he was late (AGAIN). my health isn't good, the world can tell, especially my family. which is the reason why i wasn't able to attend THREE christmas parties and i wasn't able to shop (with love that is). i cried out of humiliation and anger. ON THE SPOT. yes, christmas eve. but atleast there's one good thing about it. i think i'm inlove... THINK LANG AH. HAHAHAHAHA. gago. :))
hindi naman ako naging brat eh. i actually think i've been an angel. i've been working for a week. i lost big money, but i didn't burn the house down because of it. i played soccer with my little brother (i had intentions to). hindi ako nagreklamo about being so depressed coz' of my stupid weak body. ni hindi nga ako gumawa ng christmas list eh! kasi alam ko i have all that i need. BUT THE TRUTH IS.... i had this wish list in my head i just didn't have the time to put it down coz' i was too busy loving the world and being loved by it. i guess... thats it. for me. angel na ko nun. SHET. what a big fat devil.
but its true. what i said... i DO have everything. i don't know why i'm so pissed about being judged and being a victim of theft. i don't know why i have to hate him for being late. i don't know why i'm SO HUMILIATED to wear that stupid mask infront of my family. I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING. i should actually be thankful. all these people love me. I JUST KNOW IT. and somehow, somewhere... I'D GET MY ANSWERS. i just have to wait. it'll be worth the wait. i know it. i'm just being impatient and i'm just denying facts.
soooooooo, i'm gonna go wait and pack for tomorrows trip now.
maybe this'll be a good one for me. JUST MAYBE.
as written on: Sunday, December 21, 2008
I NEED MY LIFE BACK
as written on: Monday, December 15, 2008
titled as: SAM THE GREAT.
tutoring wasn't that bad......... WELL... FINE. IT WAS. pero things could have gone worse. so i guess i'd have to appreciate na i got along well with sam and his mom. and very good kasi si nara, hindi ako sinipot. INDYANERANG KOREANA! pero love ko parin siya.
pero grabeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. &*%@*#%@##*^$!#* yung asian history!!!!! AS IN CULTURE SHOCK. AS IN. as in parang ako pa yung tinuturuan niya. ay. hindi naman.... PERO AS IN. as in nung nakita ko yung topics before we started, gusto ko na lang na himatayin ako right infront of my mom and lora and sam. since when the hell did i study asian history?!?!!! MS. S*****!? eh kaaway ko yung matabang yun e. almost half ng meetings namin i either cut class or made up an excuse to practice some presentation. and minsan pinapalabas niya ko ng classroom for being randomly absent-minded and noisy. AND YEAH. i think di ko natapos half her modules. she was a badass fat teacher. and i wish i'd be teaching my student the right way. far from how she tought me (us).
and since i was somehow a not very good teacher for my first tutorial, i pray na lang that he gets a high grade tomorrow and that he won't forget the very FEW things we tried to memorize and i pray he wouldn't remember much of the FAIL FACTS like being "sam the great". PLEASE GOD, HELP HIM (and me).
THINGS THAT HAPPENED RECENTLY:
- vannesa and JM's grand eyeball. KILIG.
- keeno and ado's field demo. MISSHS.
- we made room assignments for christmas vacation. FUN.
- WORLD = TAMPO = PAU = SHIT.
- i has new planner and new stabilo .4 pen set. LOVE. LOVE. LOVE.
- i had confession twice this month. (I KNOW RIGHT)
- i ate my 1/4 plate dinner for 3hrs tonight. I WAS SAD.
and nakakatamad kaya kumain.
HI. I NEED TO GO SLEEP AND BE PRETTY NAO.
Labels: sensei
as written on: Tuesday, December 9, 2008
titled as: SICK.
and when i say sick, i mean NOT EVEN FEELIN IT.
ABA! studyante naman akong gusto pumasok noh (asa). grabe eh. game na game na game na ko for my tuesday day na limang klase ang papasukan tapos eto ka nanamaaaaaaaaaaan. NAMAN! namimiss ko na magjeep. :( eh? gusto ko lang lumabas sa kulungan kooo. naiirita ako dito sa loob e. kung anu-ano naiisip ko. >:) JOKE. nagiging emo lang ako. ayuuuuurrrrrrrrr. and i need to buy. BUY. JUST BUY!
have to work hard startin' tomorrow kung gusto kong makasali. :D its the time discipline, hunny.
Labels: sick
as written on: Sunday, December 7, 2008
titled as: who said my birthday was over?
ACTUALLY, IT JUST STARTED.
pwede namang nananaginip lang ako nung nangyari ang lahat ng yun, pero hindi. i knew something was goin' on when momma asked me to go with her. pero iba yung nasa isip ko. i was stuck between the want of not hurting and disappointing him again OR the want of not rejecting mama cause' i know it would hurt to chooose him over her and the want of shopping (ofcourse. haha). it was a decision i knew i'd have to make sometime. and as i was on my way to tell her that i was goin' with her, she told me she prepared this surprise for me and she was so disappointed that i just had to ruin it for choosing something else. medyo magulo cause' ako lang ata nakakaintindi dun sa case. but it hurt me so much that there were so many things that night that i wanted to tell both of them. how much i love them. i never had the guts to blame God for it. kasi alam ko how much it was my fault and my thinking that made that decision. and just a few days before that, i was told to stop it when he disagrees with what i say and what i know is right. but i know how much God understands how hard it is for me to do that. BASTA. yun na yun. it was all my fault. for even thinking of choosing him/it. :)) and yes, i've learned my lesson. :D
i was much disappointed sa sinabi nila sa'kin. that why is it whenever they need me, i'd be like their superhero. but when it was my turn, it was more than hard to lift a finger. i understand that maybe, mahirap nga talaga. cause' i do experience that sometimes. or, maybe i ain't that important to them (dramaqueen). but one thing's for sure i do know those who are ready to give a bundle of effort just for me. AND. goodluck naman if all of them went. MATUTULOG KAMI NG NAKATAYO! so thanks anyways. =))
kahit no pillowfights and guy strippers and alcohol happened, IT WAS PAAARFEEEEEK. pinagpilitan naming ipagkasya sa aming mga tiyan ang limpak limpak na pagkain, naglaro kami ng strip 1-2-3 pass, nanuod kami ng horror movie na ibang klase ang epeks, nagproduce kami ng play (monologue, dialogue, tapsilogue), nagbabad kami sa h2o, nakagawa kami ng tatlong music bidyo, at huli sa lahat, GOODLUCK SA MGA MAKAKAKITA NG MGA LITRATO NAMIN. hehehe. >:) etc. etc. etc.
may mga oras na nagdrama ako at hindi makatulog. ang first word ko sa umaga ay ***. addict much? :)) kaya ata.... NILALAGNAT AKO NGAYON. at nabasag ko pa ng bongga ang thermometer namin. buti na lang may extra pa. sorry na. medyo notorious ako pag naghalo ang galit, tampo, selos, at lagnat e. pero wala na yun. sabi ko nga sa latter, it'll all follow through.... KEME LANG. :)) :p
soooooooo. sa hinaba haba ng post ko, gusto ko lang talaga magpasalamat naman (nanaman) kay MOMMA, kay father bobby, kay tita liza (BFF), at sa mga kaibigang walang humpay na nagmamahal.
soooooooo. sa hinaba haba ng post ko, gusto ko lang talaga magpasalamat naman (nanaman) kay MOMMA, kay father bobby, kay tita liza (BFF), at sa mga kaibigang walang humpay na nagmamahal.
I MAHALS YOU TOOOOOOOOO.
hinihingal ako sa haba ng post ko at sa tagal magupload ng mga litrato.
as written on: Monday, December 1, 2008
titled as: there's always sunshine after the rain. :)
it is and was always my call.
my call with the help of God.
(masyado na akong religious. HAHAHAHA.)
but it is after all, the truth.
i have all the strength to fight for it and give it my all.
but i also have the weakness to break down and fall.
so i need you through this, you know i do.
don't give up on us. it'll all follow through.
WAAY-NI! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. :))
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me and momma FINALLY went out today. and.... you do know that feeling when you always want to buy something and you keep in my mind you'd want this specific thing (a book, dress, donut, etc.) then when you finally have the time and money to buy it, suddenly manghihinayang ka and you'd think you might want something better after you buy it. O_O so yes, nahirapan ako magshop because of that. or maybe napressure lang ako. harhar. but weeelllll.... i gots new jacket and new dress. YEY. :D
the moon is smiling at me tonight.
Labels: kitkat
.THE SLACKER.
im not perfect. and i
don't want to be.
"once you read this life, you might be influenced
by it. or you're too safe not to be."
see you around human.
study your heart.
.WATCHING YOU GO.
.REMINDS ME OF.
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