i'm just a little too pissed with myself for keeping up with all of it. someone's supposed to be telling me everything i should be doing right now. i need someone who KNOWS EVERYTHING and knows how i feel para masabi sa'kin the exact words i want to hear so that i'd do it. hindi ko lang kasi ginagawa coz' i don't have anybody else to blame if i give it all up and end up crying and hurting a lot more. plus, I JUST CAN'T. sobrang simple. i wish he'd be more of doing than saying. and saying less and doing more.
i feel so used and so useless.