as written on: Tuesday, September 30, 2008

kaya ko maging biggest bitch on earth when i choose to be.
but i didn't want to be that night.
because i was overpowered by that stupid thing. (whatever they call it.)

lovers make it to their happy *slash* sad endings *slash* begginings BECAUSE THEY CHOOSE TO. they choose what they say and what they do and what they think. that's what gets them to where they are. so wherever they are, THEY MADE THAT HAPPEN. and they are not exactly to blame anybody else or each other or God or some random dog for anything they did or didn't do.

ehhhh....

"ALAM MO BA KUNG GAANO KALAYO ANG PAGITAN

NG DALAWANG TAO PAG MAGTALIKURAN NA SILA?

KAILANGAN MONG LIBUTIN ANG BUONG MUNDO

PARA MAKAHARAP ULIT ANG TAONG TINALIKURAN MO."

-bob ong

AY GANON. sige goodluck.

OH GEOG. WHY KILL ME? WHY WHY WHYYYYY? PITY NAMAN. O_O

as written on: Wednesday, September 24, 2008

he's here right now.
not beside me.
JUST HERE.


sleeping. RIGHT THERE. beside my brother.
(ang kapal ng mukha noh? hahaha. awkwaaaaaard.)


:DDD

as written on: Tuesday, September 16, 2008

life always seemed so hard. UNTIL NOW. everybody's been cramming, screaming, blaming, crying, spying, shitting, hitting, whining, fighting, drinking, losing, hurting, breaking, weeping, buying, smoking, spinning, faking, hating.... ing.
and it doesn't stop there.

WALALANG. KASI NAPADAAN LANG ANG KLASE NAMIN SA CALATAGAN.

........ and then the spirit of WANTING TO CHANGE THE WORLD suddenly runs fast into our hearts.

if you just see and feel and taste and hear and smell what kind of worthy, beautiful life they live. you'd love the world and then you'd hate those who rule it. and then you'd want to rule it and MAKE THAT CHANGE that their strong hearts have waited for their entire lives.

i do not believe that they have to take this all away from them.

so i want everybody to see why they shouldn't.

and i want EVERYBODY to think about those people who have
the bravest and biggest hearts.



* PANGINOON DAGAT LUPA KUYA ALEX RAMMIL BOBBY HUKAY POWERPUFF GIRLS OH YEAH TITO AL DINGDONG CD11A ROGER PAA PUTIK BROWN RICE. RANDOM. :))

as written on: Monday, September 15, 2008

i am not allowing you to know

EVERYTHING.

as written on: Thursday, September 4, 2008

JAMIE IS LALALALALALALAVUVUVUVUVUV. OTH season5. was..... very distracting and it made me go through days that i was sick and if i wasn't watching it siguro nagmumukmok nanaman ako like i always do which i didn't yey and i'm happy today hindi ko din alam why maybe because i went home early and our report sa CD 11 sucked big time we weren't even able to finish it and maybe because i read 3 VERY PUNYETANG MAHABA na personal essays last night/this morning just to find out na we didn't have time to do kahit isang quiz of the three today and i'm happy kasi i now have a very very very reason to go to school on tuesdays and thursdays kahit na sobrang aga ng klase ko (at ang mga kaklase ko umaalis na sa kanikanilang mga bahay kahit hindi pa lumalabas ang araw) sa sobrang aga and having to start it with a smile because I AM HAPPY and dahil kagabi tinext ako ni kevin pagkatapos niyang burahin ang napakaganda kong numero ng halos tatlong beses wag niang idedeny ito ay may pake parin siya and i thought that was all i am for them pero hindi pala ay for him pala and i love love love him for telling me to drink multivitamins and that may abs parin siya hahahaha aaand because yesterday and the day before that and the day before that and the week before that i didn't do anything with my life and now wala parin akong ginagawa sa buhay ko but i am happy coz' now i see and i see and i see what she meant by making sure of what i should have decided because now you're just not that man i thought would prove her wrong and i have NO IDEA why that makes me happy but i am. TODAY.

:)

as written on: Tuesday, September 2, 2008

then all you could do is just sit and stare and wait for the next worse thing that may happen. OR, not thinking about anything at all. kasi no matter how hard you try and force yourself to think of any good fruit the situation could bare, WALA EH. you'd just get so dissapointed and mas madedepress ka pa. you're given the chance nalang to choose between: being sad or being worse than sad.

WELL ATLEAST NAKAKAPAG-ARAL AKO DIBA? (or not)

yes i know. there are so many things i should be thankful for right now. tangina ang saya kaya ng geog camp!!! :D but it kinda killed me. so hindi ko alam if i should be thankful about it or not. maybe i should be. or maybe not. :))

honestly, words of "kaya mo yan" wouldn't really help pero kung sswertehin ako, i'd hear it from someone i really want to hear it from. or just a sign that everything will be okay.... its all i ask for. REALLY. but if this is really the plan that everybody's been talking about and believing. ok tanggap tanggap nalang. AS IF MAY MAGAGAWA PA KO. now let's see if this outlook would be the best.