as written on: Tuesday, October 30, 2007
BLOG NA HINDI PAGSASAWAAN.ang badtrip pala kapag nakabasa ka ng blog na sobrang astig noh?!
the feeling especially when i compare it to mine! oh crap. it feel like alotta crap.
because ayon kay sir.paul (psychology professor) that...
behavior = feelings = thinking
which absolutely states that, the way i act. or how i do things in life. which are written on this blog.
and so are the feelings i have. are ALSO written on this blog.
even how i think! IS written on this blog.
okay. parang mali yung mga sinabi ko. but its like this.
since how i write these messages are according to what i feel, it affects the way i see things now. AFTER I READ THE BEST BLOG I'VE EVER READ. now, since i compared. i THINK that nobody would ever ever have the time to read this. and because i thinking this way, it makes me FEEL so deprived which causes me to ACT very matamlay. so yeah, i guess yan yung sagot sa tanong ni juni sken kanina.
well anywaaaaayyssssss.
about this blog, i like it because its really fun and interesting. and. you could tell, THIS GUY IS BEING TRUE. may emo moments din siya. *hindi nawawala yun sa blog*. PLUS!!! how often do i see guys blogging? (exception to multiply) diba diba?
mehn. people would kill to read that page. BUT I'M NOT TELLING YOU. hahaha. coz i don't even know the guy. haha. his blog just made my day. i swear. someday, i'd hope to know him. AS FRIENDS, okaaay. as friends! haha. he's too old for me. :p
hint: "i blog you! kinilig ka?"
belated happy 20teenth birthday to ma. vannesa bal a.k.a SMOOCHIES.
&
belated happy 18th birthday to rynah magbitang a.k.a. PINGPONG.
[pau]
as written on: Saturday, October 27, 2007
if monday was a time for me to be with my friends...- we went to rynah's.
- had time to chat. talked our asses off. (hahaha)
- cooked "torta"? with ryn. she taught me how to cook cornedbeef with egg na ginawang torta. sarap ng luto ko. pramis. di nga lang inubos nila choy.
- played cards with mark & ryn. (oh btw. palaging talo si amul. lol. i really had to say that in public.)
- choy and mike played the "big man's game" ika nga nila, chess. haha.
- rynah painted my nails. astig. its pink with gold glittery stuff on it.
- after this, pumunta kami ni choy and mike to abs-cbn to get my oh-so-neglected mp3 player at bench fix. talagang nag-ayos pa sila at lahat bago kami bumaba ng taxi e. in the end, wala sila nadatnan na chix. HAHAHA. sucks for them. then nilibre ko sila ng 35 peso ice cream kasi nilibre nila ako ng pamasahe.
- we went home. ate dinner kamin tatlo. kare-kare!
- we rated random people for some reason. and umabot sa new game yung iba. HAHAHA. mike talaga baliw. okay. di ko na ieexplain sanyo kung ano ibig sabihin nun. :))
friday was a time for me to be with more of my friends. HAHAHA. and it was a time to REPAIR.
- i got dressed at 10:30 expecting aljon to come over at exactly 10:59am.
- i play spider solitaire until 11:56am. atlast aljon came to the rescue. hahaha.
- we went to justin's condo. and unluckily, ININDYAN NIYA KAME. crap mehn. wag mo nang ulitin pls lang. haha.
- we went to sm centerpoint to meet ice and marj. (dahil late nanaman si trish)
- met up with mark at starbucks katips. and nagusap-usap.
> seating arrangement: ice and marj magkatabi. me infront of ice and mark infornt of marj. then aljon at the ehad of the table.
> conversation:
mark: oh marj, kamusta naman si aljon?!
marj: ayun. wala nga kaming communication e.
mark: a talaga.
HAHAHAHAHA. lol. ewan ko kung nagets niyo yun. pero promise it was friggin funny. hahaha.
- we went to eastwood dahil napakatagal ni trish.
- ate at FAZOLIS and ninakaw lahat ng free breadsticks.
- dumating si bry. (aljon: aha! sinong mataba ngayon a!!! ha? ha? HAHAHAHAHA.)
- dumating si trish. (lahat: whoooaaaaaaa. HAHAHAHA.)
- went out. _____ & _____ made their bisyo.
- we all went upstairs to play billiards and make usap usap.
- went down and make bisyo uli yung tatlo.
- theeeeeeeeeen, me ice and trish went to the mc fair. AT WALA KAMING NADATNAN DUN. astig. HAHAHA.
- so we went to shakeys and ate nalang.
ang saya ng buhay kapag bumabalik na sa dati...
life definitely gets better.
Ü
[pau]
as written on: Saturday, October 20, 2007
"Galileo"
Galileo's head was on the block the crime
was looking up the truth
as the bombshells of my daily fears explode
i try to trace them to my youth
then you had to bring up reincarnation
over a couple of beers the other night
now i'm serving time for mistakes
made by another in another lifetime
how long till my soul gets it right
can any human being ever reach that kind of light
i call on the resting soul of galileo
king of night vision king of insight
i think about my fear of motion
which i never could explain
some other fool across the ocean years ago
must have crashed his little airplane
i'm not making a joke you know me
i take everything so seriously
if we wait for the time till all souls get it right
then at least i know there'll be no nuclear annihilation
in my lifetime I'm still not right i offer thanks to those before me
that's all i've got to say
maybe you squandered big bucks
in your lifetime now I've got to pay
but then again it feels like some sort of inspiration
to let the next life off the hook or she'll say look
what i had to overcome
from my last life i think i'll write a book
[this shithead song makes me cry]
[pau]
as written on: Friday, October 19, 2007
ikakokontento ko ang araw na to kung pinaliwanag niya manlang kung bakit siya nagpunta dito.
wether you believe it or not. I WAS HAPPY TO SEE HIM. i was happy to hear from him. i was happy that he's been doing fine and he's enjoying what he has. but its not fair that out of the blue, he'd come here and just talk to me like nothing ever happened. di manlang nagsimula sa kahit konting araw ng pangangamusta... punta agad ehh! ayos noh.
like my BEBE said, i really should learn from what happened before. not like it onyl happened once with him. he's not really the kind of guy you'd trust to come back into your life for no reason at all.
bebe: hay bebe
bebe: learn from wat hpnd before
bebe: its a nightmare
bebe: and of course u wouldnt wanna sleep again to the old bad dream
T***** PAU! MATUTO KA NA!
PLEASE LANG A! :p
[pau]
i woke up at exactly 2:49pm today when i was supposed to be at choy's kasi nagpromise ako last night that i'd be going to his house if he was really, really bored. but then again. i took my time habang nakakatanggap nko ng maraming msgs from him asking me to go there. but i apologized. pinatawad naman ako e. just that i know nagtampo siya. :
i accidentally did nothing today but bum around. hahaha. nung gabi, since me and kuya nico didn't have anything to do, we went to kamuning para magpamember sa video city. luckily, closed na pala dun. AND, sakto pagdating nmen sa kamuning, nagblackout sa buong baranggay! oh yeah. so we walked. and bought gsm blue + nuts (for pulutan). we went to lola's and borrowed dvd nalang. when we were on our way home. kuya noticed that his wallet was missing. we went back to lola's and we didn't find it. ito ang laman ng wallet: license, I.D., and 2,000php. OUCH. that must hurt. but still, umaasa kami ni kuya that its at lola's, we just didn't see it. please pray for the person that must've saw it or something. kawawa naman siya. i pity him/her. there... ang saya ng sembreak. lols.
belated happy birthday to:
paolo surio & raymond. Ü
[pau]
as written on: Tuesday, October 16, 2007
"FEEL IT, FEEL IT."
ang araw na ito ay hindi pwedeng masabing "may kulang". :)
--gumising ako.
tinawagan si LOWLA at nagpaalam. pumayag siya! kaya naman kami'y natuwa. hahaha.
--pumuntang sebeng elebeng.
nadaanan ko sila zyra, mel, gayle at rolan sa budget meal. at nag"hi" ako. haha. tapos imineet ko ang aking mga munting kaibgan. ako nalang pala inaantay nila nung mga oras na yun. este.. si marj din falah. mejo nagdaldalan muna kami. bumili ng JUMPFOODS at CHUCHIRYA na napaksarap at napakamura, at tinawanan namin yung isang studyante na nagulat sa nakita niyang van-dancing-"feel me, feel me." (ano kayang pakiramdam nung studyanteng yun?! HAHA.)
--naglakad kami papunta keyla lowla.
ayon nga. kami;y naglakad. syempre. onting sunbathing muna bago magswimming diba. para feel namen. :)
--nakilala nila ang aking modern lowla.
hayun. natour ko sila sa studio ni lolamoms ng wala sa oras. hehe. nagustuhan nila paintings. (si lola pa!) at namangha sila sa pambahay ni lola na MALONG ONLY. :D
--naghanda kami por ishwimming.
habang pair-by-pair nagbibihis sa washroom. i turned on the TV. dahil sa request ni tricia na manuod ng OBH. pagka-on ko, biglang namatay! tapos may nagssound na ewan sa loob nung TV. waahahaha. shet. kinabhan ako dun. so sa dinami dami ng explanations to explain that incident, ok lang kay lowla at piangswim na kami.
--lumangoy ng lumangoy.
masarao lumangoy. basta di ka nangangamoy. HAHAHA. ang labo. so yun. we swam. magulong swimming. masaya. at napakalikot na mga bata. si van, balot na balot. si ianne, di mo alam anong trip. si nara, merong floaters sa braso. LOL. hahaha. and i therefore conclude na si nara ang pinakasadistang swimmer. [babala: wag niyo siyang isama pag lalangoy kayo] si marj, sa isang iglap, napunta agad sa mga braso niya yung floaters ni nara. (hanggang ngayon di ko malaman pano niya nagawa yon) si tricia, O.C. sa katawan at kumpara ng kumpara ng tiyan, hita, stretchmarks, braso at kung anu-anu pa sa ibang tao.
--kumain ng kumain.
umahon kami at pinagusapan ang dapat i-order na pagkain. mga isan oras bago kami magdecide. at humantong kami sa unang decision din namin. galing noh. :p kumain kami ng marami. nagpahinga. aaaaatt....
--lumangoy muli.
ng mga oras na toh. nagpicture na kami ng marami. at sinubukan naming hubaran si marianne. ANG SAYA SAYA! hahaha.
--naligo at nag-ayos.
umahon na muli kami. nagtuyo ng katawan tapos nagbasa uli kasi naligo na kami. hahaha. dahil isa-isa kaming natulog, leche. nakatulog ako sa kakaantay. at KINUHANAN NI VAN ANG GAGONG MUKHA KO HABANG TULOG. [bukas ang mata, duling, at bukas ang bibig, nakapose pa na parang model!] OHA! san pa kayo makakakita ng ganon! haha. lecheng buhay yan oh. :p
--umuwi na.
nagsiuwi na. nagbabay na kay lowla. at nagpasalamat.
--MY HAIRCUT.
eto na. because i was craving for a haircut, sinamahan ako ni van. pumunta kaming trinoma para magpagupit sa bench fix. fully booked daw sila. sabay sinungitan pa kami nung babae dun. so nagpunta kaming sm north. at fully booked din sila. kaya pinatawag nmen sila sa abs=cbn. pero CHEAP SILA (tulad ko), at naka-online daw kaya walang dial-tone. naghanap muna kami ng maiinom. bumili ako ng nescafe moccha at sabi nung ALE, wala daw siyang change for 500php. aba'y pinaglololoko kami. naghanap hanap pa. MERON NAMAN PALANG CHANGE! sipain ko yun e. eto naaaa..... my peborit. ang tanong: nakatikim na ba kayo ng icecream na pinatigas?! ha? ha? KALA NIYO! ako nakatikim na! LIBRE PA NI VAN! how yeah. ANG SARAP! POTA. sumusubo ako ng nagmumura. HAHAHA. ang astig pa ng pagkakagawa!! oha oha! :p at ayun. nagpunta kami sa abs-cbn branch. via MRT (my first time na sumakay na mrt station ng sm north. wee) nakarating kami don ng 6:30pm at shinampoohan ako ni kuya jake. nakipagdaldalan pa sken...
[habang nagshshampoo ng buhok ng may buhok]
kuyajake: hi. anong pangalan mo?
pau: pau. ikaw po?
kuyajake: jake. ilang taon ka na?
pau: 16. hi kuyajake.
kuyajake: bata pa ko. 17 palang ako. kuya ka jan.
(basta mahaba pa. tinatamad nko. eto da best ehh.)
kuyajake: marami ka bang friends?
pau: uhm. oo naman. medyo. haha..
kuyajake: ganon. pwede mo ba ko maging friends?
pau: hahaha. sige sure. ang dami mo pala noh? friends. HAHAHA.
kuyajake: ay oo. may kambal ako e. astig kaya yon. hahaha..
[ginupitan na ko at lahat. si kuyajake uli nagblower na buhok ko. andun si van sa tabi ko.]
kuyajake: classmates kayo?
pau: yep.
kuyajake: ah talaga.
pau: oo talaga.
kuyajake: bestfriends kayo?
pau: ahehe. oo. Ü
--uwian na nmen ni van.
nagpasundo kami kay mama at hinatid nmen siya sa sakayan.
nag-gm ako.
WHAT A PERFECT DAY. THANK YOU GOD. Ü
[pau]
as written on: Thursday, October 11, 2007
PAPA TONY + MISS OLYMPICS = A REALIZATION. Ü
(because of kuyajaysee's kwentong tambay, mukhang magaganahan akong magentry in tagalog. LOL.)
so lets talk about busy. october starts and... (oy teka. sabi ko magtatagalog ehh!) nagsimula ang oktubre at... (okay ang hirap. HAHA.)
hella week. hella school.
october1-5
sometimes i find it really hard to consider that ive been denying the truth. the truth na, i actually love it in st.marys. not because of the reason that i dont have issues or i have alot of friends. (well, partly yeah) but the reason na i could cope up with everything. with people, with professors, and definitely with the curriculum. yun bang. i do have a hard time studying. kahit sino naman e. but i could really cope up. as in. ive been guessing that if i was in some kinda university. or IF i started college in a university. i'd be sobrang malaki ulo and mayabang and... (ang racist ko ba. HAHAHA. di! im defining me ha! not university people!) im just appreciating what ive been recieving lately.. and im really happy about this.
so last week, was requirement week. kinailangan nmeng magpasa ng requirements for subjects. like... the movie for ICT, the 10page autobiography for psych and etc.
plus sumabay dito ang katawa-tawang play for humanities. *bow*
-- aba'y malay ko ang trip ng FATE sa buhay ko at pinagdrama niya ako bilang isang lalakwe. tama daw bang mabali ang leeg ni victor (the guy who was supposed to play the bida mans part) a day before the play "new yorker in tondo". at first i thought it would be cool na inappoint ako to play the part as a guy. but when thursday came, THE HELL I WAS AFRAID.
(hulaan niyo muna kunga nasan ako. LOL. gwapo noh.)
presenting....nara, tricia, kevin, ateflor and mhean as the dancers
van / baby as aling atang
marj as nena
sandy as totoy
kikay as marianne (BALIKTAD)
and ME..... as tony
i mean, how would you feel that random high school students plus college students are watching you role play a guy na babaero or something. thats kinda... embarassing. TRULY. but i was VERY VERY touched na people said it was really kwela and they actually congratulated us. for doing such a last minute play. hahaha. also. it was really great having sila van and tricia and the others na hindi nangiiwan sa ere. TEAM! OH YEAH! harhar. nd i bet i wouldnt have been that confident if SANDY wasn'e there being such a good actor as he is. or actress? lol. :p
friday came, and it was mini sportsfest day. whatever they call it.
(i was having 2nd thoughts about making kwento this part kasi people might say i'm you know what... but hell. i wanted to remember that day naman.) Ü
so yeah. they appointed me to be a representative for my very own course, education. i really dont know why. because i didnt have anything to show. except for my soccer outfit that is. HAHAHA. i practiced my last minute talent. (which i didnt really have* and i simply wore my soccer jersey.
presenting....
tricia as a representative for com. stud.
tin as a representative for nursing
and me as a representative for education
now that was a crazy thing. na a very unconfident girl parades in her soccer outift, go to stage with her 6 footer escort, pose, model, introduce herself and show a talent she never had and never will have. tapos ako pa yung una saming tatlo. MEHN THAT WAS HORRIBLE. i really hated how i sang and played the guitar nung talent portion ko. it seemed, boring and weird. especially with the very echo-y mic. but i was absolutely glad that vannesa was there to play the guitar with me. SOBRA. edi di ako nagmukhang tanga magisa! HAHAHA. joke lang bal. so there. i got through posing, modelling, introducing, singing.... then there came the Q&A shit. GRABE! me, tricia and tin even had to cheat and find out the questions before we went back to stage!!! hahaha. aiun. the question i got was something like... "what activity would you impose if ever you win miss olympics?" THE HELL. PAKEALAM KO SA ACTIVITIES! edi maglaro ng jackstone. or magcontest ng pagandahan ng friendster account. but ofcourse i didnt say that. doii... haha. out of the blue, words like, being humble and showing talent came out of my mouth. basta all i know was tama yung grammar ko and i pronounced the words well. i think i had no idea what i was saying. but then, i won. funny. but i did. i think it was because siabihan ko yung judges that i'd give them each a gummy bear. HAHAHA. DI NAMAN AKO GANON KADESPERADS! i felt great actually. di naman maiiwasang matouch or maflatter if you win something. and somehow, i was proud of myself. ba ewan. basta magulo feeling ko nun. masaya ako pero napparanoid ako. gulo. err. yun. congrats to me? :p
after the whole sportsfest thing. na nagsariling game kami ni bal ng soccer. HAHAHA. may liga kami e. the bal team and the pau team. tapos one member each. galing noh?! :))
we went to bridges to practice for the finals in P.E. hindi padin ko nkkapaghugas ng mukha or nakakapagpalit ng damit. we finished practicing ng 10pm. WOW. talk about tired.
then when i went home. i forgot to eat dinner. tapos naalala ko lang kumain 11:30pm na. and then i finished yung movie nmen for ICT. which i think was good kasi inspired ako nung araw na yun e. haha. 2am na ko nkatulog. FRIGGIN TIME. i wish i could stop time! crep.
the day after that, saturday. 8am ang nat. sci. and i went to scool at 10am. MAGALING MAGALING! hahaha. but atleast diba. nkpagreport pko. AT LINTEK, UMABOT AKO SA QUIZ. ayaw patawad ni sir. LOL. hahahaha. nung P.E. natapos nmen aralin lahat ng steps in just less than 50mins. and we all passed the finals. har de har har. then nung ICT, CRAAAAAAAAAAAAP! with my whole aching body (lalo na legs), me and nara rushed to national bookstore because great madam acyat said deadline na daw nung output! EGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD. so i went home na.... PAGOD KUNG PAGOD!!
october 8-13
and since this week was finals week, i still had friggin fun. na tipong nag-aaral ka ng seryoso sa desk mo habang kumakain ng masarap na masarap na cupcake. tapos bigla mong maiisip na magpicture ng may chocolate sa ngipin. ODIBA! ang saya saya mag-aral. nakakabaliw. o kaya naman, sa sobrang pagod mo, iyak ka na ng iyak tapos pipilitin mo sarili mong magbasa ng librong nakakatawa. pero habang binabasa mo yung libro, umiiyak ka parin. the after a while. pagtatawanan mo na sarili mo. HAHAHAHA. i love me when i do that. :))
so theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeree. i'm betting this has been one of my longest posts na. or rather, IT IS my longest post. all i actually wanted to say here is that, screw my painting of "ihatesmc". because i do hate it for the reason that i dont feel very college-y. but my hatred of it is being overpowered by my love for it. because for these past 2 weeks, ive realized that i bet if i someday woke up realizing that going to smc was a dream, i'd still go there. for i met people worth knowing and keeping, i found out how much i could do or until where i could go, and i started appreciating what i have rather than craving for what i didnt have. Ü
(hindi ko na ata natagalog lahat. di ko kinaya e. HAHAHA. lol.)
btw. pics at multiply.
www. yournotmytype.multiply.com
[pau]
.THE SLACKER.
im not perfect. and i
don't want to be.
"once you read this life, you might be influenced
by it. or you're too safe not to be."
see you around human.
study your heart.
.WATCHING YOU GO.
.REMINDS ME OF.
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