as written on: Monday, June 18, 2007
.trying.
(sorry about last post. sooooo emo. yuck.)
since wala parin naman magbabasa nito. (emo parin. HAHAHA.) might as well be open about what ive been feeling recently. i just had a VERY BAD EXPERIENCE last thursday. *im not ready to tell just anyone about it actually* sooo. as i could see it now. phobia comes in. or trauma. what the hell do you want to call it, its fine with me. i cried alot. and i texted two people that i know would be there to come help me. but. sadly. the first one i cried for help. didnt actually come. she ignored me. so there. i cried to three people. namely first: mike, second: mark and third: mama. na umiyak talaga ako ng todo. wow diba.
ok. so enough about that stupid experience. if nobody of these people i will be mentioning here woul be able to read this. then good. pero pag nabasa niyo toh. better. hm. you know what guys. i tried really hard to find a way that we could all meet up and be together. and since i got that day. i was really happy to hear that may possibility padin na magget-together tayo. theeeen. nobody replies. nobody even tells me na "no thanks". just a simple *ignore* SALAMAT A. thats helped alot. i did my best naman to comfort you guys when you were all down. not that im counting. pero simpleng dalawang oras?! how hard could that be?! grabe. and the SOUL that i was expecting to understand this. was actually telling me that i parang she didt do anything wrong. why?! what happened to US? puro nalang ba kayong dalawa?! its unfair. now i know how the other "stupid guy" feels. ahay. whatever. not as if everything i say here would make a difference dun sa friendship or reelationship that we have now. i mean all of us. ALL NINE OF US. everything changes. and the one thing that i hope wouldn't, still did. thats life i guess.
one more thing. i have just the coolest prof in fil. I! HAHAHA. sir.ert. o yea. if id tell you our first 3hrs with him. you would so wish he was your prof! BWAHAHAHA. line for the day (thanks to sir.ert):
"wag ninyo akong tawaging bakla. dahil may pangalan ako."
[pau]
.THE SLACKER.
im not perfect. and i
don't want to be.
"once you read this life, you might be influenced
by it. or you're too safe not to be."
see you around human.
study your heart.
.WATCHING YOU GO.
.REMINDS ME OF.